Hello again...
....my electronic diary! You're the only one whom I can converse with, who will not betray me in any way or hurt me, although I must admit that my skin has become tough as leather with all the knives of betrayal,disappointment and unhappiness that have been hurled at me.
I will recount all the instance, but suffice to mention that eight dates have come to nought year-to-date.
Am I bitter? If I let myself become so, yes.... but that is occurring farther and farther between
normalcy.
Am I still disappointed? Well, you might as well as me if I'm human...
However, I've trained my mind to suppress disappointment in my waking hours as far as possible.
YES, I'M FUCKING ABNORMAL!
There, catharsis....anger out my nostrils.
But I'd like to think of myself as unique. A placatory euphemism.
I've no one to talk to, unlike so many people who hang out in the places I go to to chill.
But heaven knows I've tried. And tried. And tried.
It hurts...
I will recount all the instance, but suffice to mention that eight dates have come to nought year-to-date.
Am I bitter? If I let myself become so, yes.... but that is occurring farther and farther between
normalcy.
Am I still disappointed? Well, you might as well as me if I'm human...
However, I've trained my mind to suppress disappointment in my waking hours as far as possible.
YES, I'M FUCKING ABNORMAL!
There, catharsis....anger out my nostrils.
But I'd like to think of myself as unique. A placatory euphemism.
I've no one to talk to, unlike so many people who hang out in the places I go to to chill.
But heaven knows I've tried. And tried. And tried.
It hurts...
posted by DP at
4:52 AM
2 Comments:
I'd just like to thank you for sharing your thoughts. I came upon your profile in sgboy and thought of taking a peek at your blogs. I sense your loneliness from your entries, which I didn't expect.
I never thought of blogging until now. You said you are working on a storybook? I am starting one myself, piece by piece, one story after another. It takes a lot out of me, but it's all worth the effort. Please do check my blogs too, if you find the time. It's just a sharing of my thoughts as a storyteller.
Hope to hear from you.
Thanks jay-jay.
Yes, loneliness is the oldest companion I have, as we have been together for many many years now.
I seriously don't know why I'm lonely, but I guess I've learnt not to miss having company so well it has almost become a reflex.
Though I honestly try very hard to keep friends, somehow they end up not keeping me.
Ah, well...I take my tribulations with equanimity.
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