The Cusp of Courage

23rd October 2005

My emotional state can be likened to a quicksand. One sinks by just staying still and if he trashes, the sinking accelerates. For me, sinking equates to feeling negative emotions like sadness and anger, while floating equates to being happy.

If I do nothing to 'prop' myself up against the quicksand of negative emotion, I find myself getting more and more morose, and this continues with me to bed even. As you may imagine, I have to expend a lot of energy on positive thinking to get myself out of this depressing mud.

Yes, my future(in terms of work and career) is clouded a little and I'm still alone since Ray(God bless him)ergo eight months and friendless as ever.

But I still have my plans and my dreams and my health, so I have much to be thankful for, whether I know it or not.

I'm currently doing my homework for some short-term speculation on the stockmarket that will either dissolve all my financial disappointments for the year or put me off investments for some years.