Today is my Dad's birthday...
19th August 2005
My father was born this day many, many years ago. I called home to wish him at 7:30pm when I suddenly remembered that it was today and not the next day.
He had gone off to work not too long before. Because we are not very close, I left my wishes with my mum, instead of opting to call him at his workplace.
My maternal grandmother has been in the ICU in Kuala Lumpur for a few days now. I hope she recovers but can't help feeling what I suspect everyone else is feeling : that the end has come for her.
Am I saddened? A little, but not quite as much as I think I should be; after all, I am talking about my last living grandparent here.
Although she's 86 this year, if she leaves this world soon, she will do so without any great-grandchildren: her eldest grandchild is a feisty brat who refuses to get attached, despite having been through many rough and tumble relationships with various guys of various races.
Her second eldest(my brother) has been married for seven years but has put off having a child for professed(and unexplained) reasons. Her third eldest is gay and has a white boyfriend in Australia.Her fourth eldest(me) won't pretend to be hetero even to save his life! Further down the line are younger cousins of mine who are mostly yet to be attached(one just got married in June this year) and won't be for some time due to their youth.
And to think that my mother belonged to a family of seven children!
Life can be surprising and ironic in equal measure!
My soul is a delicate butterfly in the temperamental cross-winds of Fate and Fortune intertwined.
Destiny leads me where it will,
Through paths unknown and uncharted voyages,
I can flit and flutter round and round,
Oblivious to what waits around the corner of the next minute, the next second.
My birthday looms near, and it looks probable that I will have no one special around to celebrate it with me for the fourth year running.Last year, the only birthday wish I got was from an OCBC ATM machine! Sounds sad? It is, but it's also true.Even the card my parents sent me arrived late.
Four days later, I met Robin. That relationship dead-ended seven weeks later.
In 2003, I came close to experiencing intimacy through my birthday but it ended very shortly before...hmmm, almost two years to the day, in fact.
Well, at least I celebrated it at Genki Sushi with two ex- University mates.
I really shouldn't dwell on this pathos-filled thought and give thanks instead for all that has worked out in my life.
My father was born this day many, many years ago. I called home to wish him at 7:30pm when I suddenly remembered that it was today and not the next day.
He had gone off to work not too long before. Because we are not very close, I left my wishes with my mum, instead of opting to call him at his workplace.
My maternal grandmother has been in the ICU in Kuala Lumpur for a few days now. I hope she recovers but can't help feeling what I suspect everyone else is feeling : that the end has come for her.
Am I saddened? A little, but not quite as much as I think I should be; after all, I am talking about my last living grandparent here.
Although she's 86 this year, if she leaves this world soon, she will do so without any great-grandchildren: her eldest grandchild is a feisty brat who refuses to get attached, despite having been through many rough and tumble relationships with various guys of various races.
Her second eldest(my brother) has been married for seven years but has put off having a child for professed(and unexplained) reasons. Her third eldest is gay and has a white boyfriend in Australia.Her fourth eldest(me) won't pretend to be hetero even to save his life! Further down the line are younger cousins of mine who are mostly yet to be attached(one just got married in June this year) and won't be for some time due to their youth.
And to think that my mother belonged to a family of seven children!
Life can be surprising and ironic in equal measure!
My soul is a delicate butterfly in the temperamental cross-winds of Fate and Fortune intertwined.
Destiny leads me where it will,
Through paths unknown and uncharted voyages,
I can flit and flutter round and round,
Oblivious to what waits around the corner of the next minute, the next second.
My birthday looms near, and it looks probable that I will have no one special around to celebrate it with me for the fourth year running.Last year, the only birthday wish I got was from an OCBC ATM machine! Sounds sad? It is, but it's also true.Even the card my parents sent me arrived late.
Four days later, I met Robin. That relationship dead-ended seven weeks later.
In 2003, I came close to experiencing intimacy through my birthday but it ended very shortly before...hmmm, almost two years to the day, in fact.
Well, at least I celebrated it at Genki Sushi with two ex- University mates.
I really shouldn't dwell on this pathos-filled thought and give thanks instead for all that has worked out in my life.
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6:11 AM
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