2nd March 2005
A bleary day...in which I am seem to not be totally in charge of my mental faculties. I need a break. A break from immature kids, dead-end dates and unreasonable flatowners.
I could let myself drift and end up feeling utterly desolate and unhappy.
But I refuse to do so.
I refuse to let the world take me for granted, trample me underfoot or shortchange me in any way. I am a valuable contributor to the brightness of the future of mankind. I deserve much better than the dregs society dishes out to me. I am determined to stare fear in the face and trample it underfoot. My time will come; I have a date with destiny; I will achieve my dream, this I solemnly vow!
And....a step in the right direction would be to change my living environment. I just went to view a room in a flat near the one I'm currently living in. It's currently inhabited by three(presumably gay) guys who are not too far from cute. But the room is a little bare and they are asking for S$350, which is a tad higher than what I'm paying now. However, no women, so that's a BIG plus. *chuckle*
Today, the market was not behaving again and this helped to set me up for my aforesaid mildly--depressed mood.
Haven't had much luck making money on stocks this year, I'm afraid. Looks like I have to hang on to my job for longer than I'd planned, though it is an easy job(at my level) if you know the -ins and -outs of it, the political landscape, the loopholes(there are plenty at my workplace!) and where you can take shortcuts and how you can cheat. For no boss(especially not one as out of his element as mine) can look over your shoulder the whole time you are at work. They may try(and honest-to-God, mine has!) but it's nearly impossible.
Anyway, I'm in the luxurious position of being able to decline any 'extra' work because the perception from above is that I can leave anytime and leave I will, at the latest at end-2005.Performance bonuses are awarded in April so I won't need to chase for one and this means I can do the minimal amount of work required of me. How wonderful it is not to be mentally and psychologically beholden to anyone because you're chasing an extra few thousand dollars.It does wonders to my health, which is a priceless commodity-more valuable than silver,gold or diamonds!!
Whenever I feel sad about the direction of my career(whatever that means), I think of that cold morning more than four years ago, when I had just hopped onto a factory bus heading across the Causeway in the darkness of a 4am morning, just a couple of days into my current job, thinking to myself: "How long can I endure this?".
Here I am now, having endured it for four years, though one of those years was merely spent studying.
I'm a survivor.Of emotional insecurity. Of poverty. Of the rocks and brickbats life hurls at me for just being different and thinking differently. And I'm proud of it!
I could let myself drift and end up feeling utterly desolate and unhappy.
But I refuse to do so.
I refuse to let the world take me for granted, trample me underfoot or shortchange me in any way. I am a valuable contributor to the brightness of the future of mankind. I deserve much better than the dregs society dishes out to me. I am determined to stare fear in the face and trample it underfoot. My time will come; I have a date with destiny; I will achieve my dream, this I solemnly vow!
And....a step in the right direction would be to change my living environment. I just went to view a room in a flat near the one I'm currently living in. It's currently inhabited by three(presumably gay) guys who are not too far from cute. But the room is a little bare and they are asking for S$350, which is a tad higher than what I'm paying now. However, no women, so that's a BIG plus. *chuckle*
Today, the market was not behaving again and this helped to set me up for my aforesaid mildly--depressed mood.
Haven't had much luck making money on stocks this year, I'm afraid. Looks like I have to hang on to my job for longer than I'd planned, though it is an easy job(at my level) if you know the -ins and -outs of it, the political landscape, the loopholes(there are plenty at my workplace!) and where you can take shortcuts and how you can cheat. For no boss(especially not one as out of his element as mine) can look over your shoulder the whole time you are at work. They may try(and honest-to-God, mine has!) but it's nearly impossible.
Anyway, I'm in the luxurious position of being able to decline any 'extra' work because the perception from above is that I can leave anytime and leave I will, at the latest at end-2005.Performance bonuses are awarded in April so I won't need to chase for one and this means I can do the minimal amount of work required of me. How wonderful it is not to be mentally and psychologically beholden to anyone because you're chasing an extra few thousand dollars.It does wonders to my health, which is a priceless commodity-more valuable than silver,gold or diamonds!!
Whenever I feel sad about the direction of my career(whatever that means), I think of that cold morning more than four years ago, when I had just hopped onto a factory bus heading across the Causeway in the darkness of a 4am morning, just a couple of days into my current job, thinking to myself: "How long can I endure this?".
Here I am now, having endured it for four years, though one of those years was merely spent studying.
I'm a survivor.Of emotional insecurity. Of poverty. Of the rocks and brickbats life hurls at me for just being different and thinking differently. And I'm proud of it!
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