23rd March 2005

I feel more alone today than I've felt in a long time. I know that I shouldn't let this get to me, but sometimes it just does. Maybe the markets heading south have a big part to play in my feeling blue. I just can't fathom why I should feel inferior to everyone else when I know the opposite is true.

For once, I'm unhappy that people I know from around here choose to ignore me at my favourite seat at my favourite 'surfing' restaurant. I'm trying to look as busy as possible so they get the message that I don't give a damn whether they ignore me or not.

I'm stronger than this and I'll weather all these turbulences just as I've weathered storms in the past.

I wish to be released from the prisons that my mind, society and the world at large places around me .