2nd April 2005

Cultivating optimism is more hard work than I had bargained for.

I can't tolerate people staring at me unabashedly and this is denting my ability to be unabashedly confident myself.

Today it's some stupid mother-daughter(ugly *shudders*) pair who's trying desperately to get my attention. Poor sods! I'm totally ignoring them.

I'd be overjoyed if someone I was attracted to would look at me for longer than a few seconds.

But I'd be endure any nonchalance with calm contentment as well.

I guess any pathos on my part is due mainly to my inability to divine the stockmarkets direction lately. Karensoft collapsed by more than half right after I bought it and this has put paid to whatever interest I had left in buying more shares.

I'm lucky I only bought 3 000 shares and not 10 000!

Which means my Challenger sales proceeds comes at a timely moment to compensate for that paper loss.

Merci beaucoup, mon cheri Challenger!

P.S Some women think that just because they have a cunt that they are entitled to appreciate(and be appreciated by) any gorgeous male on the planet. Hunh!