Life can be pretty awful...

5th July 2005

A confluence of events has led to my harbouring a very negative view of life. Not often am I able to remind myself that every day of life is a gift that should never be taken for granted.

Knowing that there is someone who loves you is great, but eventually even that is taken for granted, especially in a married relationship.

I would cherish a partner so much, but even then, I know it would be conditional on this person looking good enough that I may be able to fall in love with him.

Often, I have made the mistake, through inexperience, of thinking that a person is as well-meaning and kind-hearted as I am only to discover soul-searing flakiness and superficiality.


Sometimes soldering on despite the odds is the only way to go.