When the Ellen videos wear off...
Had an uplifting morning watching videos of celebrity lesbian funnywoman Ellen DeGeneres on youtube.
Her appearance on Oprah really caught my attention, mostly for her assertion that she was able to change her down situation after coming out by embracing compassion and being true to herself(the sexuality aspect was paramount,of course).
I have been in a blue funk for about 2 weeks now. After being happy for over 8 months privately tutoring from home, the realisation hit me that I'm likely to be ill-equipped to try my hand at another full-time job. The income from this private tutoring 'stint' has been drying out quite rapidly as pupils exams began to conclude and the dreaded cancellation calls come.
It was then that I realised how important financial security is tied to my happiness. Mainly because I've let it do so for almost all my life.
Being a person who isn't ambitious about pursuing riches, extraordinary or otherwise, I lapse into despair reflexively when I stop earning an income.
Spurred on by a sense of urgency at this unfavourable development, I have seriously started writing my first book, with the plot already figured out roughly 80% of the way through.
But in the past two days, as I was left in the house alone, I found myself losing the motivation to continue the tale.
Stretching my resolve, I continued the tale yesterday before bed, extending it to roughly 3500 words in total.
I can't tell if I can push myself to continue tonight as fatigue is already weighing on my eyelids(due to only about 6 hours sleep yesterday), but I'll try...
Her appearance on Oprah really caught my attention, mostly for her assertion that she was able to change her down situation after coming out by embracing compassion and being true to herself(the sexuality aspect was paramount,of course).
I have been in a blue funk for about 2 weeks now. After being happy for over 8 months privately tutoring from home, the realisation hit me that I'm likely to be ill-equipped to try my hand at another full-time job. The income from this private tutoring 'stint' has been drying out quite rapidly as pupils exams began to conclude and the dreaded cancellation calls come.
It was then that I realised how important financial security is tied to my happiness. Mainly because I've let it do so for almost all my life.
Being a person who isn't ambitious about pursuing riches, extraordinary or otherwise, I lapse into despair reflexively when I stop earning an income.
Spurred on by a sense of urgency at this unfavourable development, I have seriously started writing my first book, with the plot already figured out roughly 80% of the way through.
But in the past two days, as I was left in the house alone, I found myself losing the motivation to continue the tale.
Stretching my resolve, I continued the tale yesterday before bed, extending it to roughly 3500 words in total.
I can't tell if I can push myself to continue tonight as fatigue is already weighing on my eyelids(due to only about 6 hours sleep yesterday), but I'll try...
posted by DP at
6:29 AM
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