A diet of bananas and pills
7th July 2005
Today, I had a great workout at the gym, and was able to maintain my emotional stability throughout, something which I've not experienced for some weeks.
I guess my mind was able to achieve an equilibrium between the negative outlook and it's perception of a bright future.
Looking inward for validation works much better for me than looking to self-centred others for it, and I've probably come to terms with the recent fiasco.
From a strictly pragmatic point of view, relationships should only be formed if they add to, not deduct from, one's happiness.
Being alone has an advantage in that it disallows shallow, selfish people from deducting from one's happiness.
It may be impossible to reduce the complexities of human emotions to mathematical equations and operations, but analogies can be drawn between the two if carefully considered.
This is my current perception of the most recent people who came into my life and then slipped out, merely deducting from my happiness.
1. Drew is a shallow, self-centred, egotistic, effeminate twink who thinks that he looks better than his below average face and physique; he believes falsely that he can critique other's sense of fashion when he himself dresses like Freddie Krueger suffering anorexia.
2. Zen is a far more boring, slightly less caring average-looking guy who shows no capacity for deep thought or reflection on life.
3. Adrian is a 33-year old who talks and thinks like someone a decade younger, and has a knack for hypocrisy and no forthrightness whatsoever. He is worth as much in a relationship as the afternoon tea we had together for the first(and last) time.
Today, I had a great workout at the gym, and was able to maintain my emotional stability throughout, something which I've not experienced for some weeks.
I guess my mind was able to achieve an equilibrium between the negative outlook and it's perception of a bright future.
Looking inward for validation works much better for me than looking to self-centred others for it, and I've probably come to terms with the recent fiasco.
From a strictly pragmatic point of view, relationships should only be formed if they add to, not deduct from, one's happiness.
Being alone has an advantage in that it disallows shallow, selfish people from deducting from one's happiness.
It may be impossible to reduce the complexities of human emotions to mathematical equations and operations, but analogies can be drawn between the two if carefully considered.
This is my current perception of the most recent people who came into my life and then slipped out, merely deducting from my happiness.
1. Drew is a shallow, self-centred, egotistic, effeminate twink who thinks that he looks better than his below average face and physique; he believes falsely that he can critique other's sense of fashion when he himself dresses like Freddie Krueger suffering anorexia.
2. Zen is a far more boring, slightly less caring average-looking guy who shows no capacity for deep thought or reflection on life.
3. Adrian is a 33-year old who talks and thinks like someone a decade younger, and has a knack for hypocrisy and no forthrightness whatsoever. He is worth as much in a relationship as the afternoon tea we had together for the first(and last) time.
I realise finally that I have much to offer a person who chooses to be my partner(after my personal vetting of course), for, though I'm temperamental, I'm also a great listener and can offer above average quantities of affection to another.
It's decisively their loss, not mine.
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